Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Nervousness

nervous jitters 2
This was me, this morning, just moments before my phone was set to ring with a very very important call. I was thinking, "Oh my stars... am I really doing this?" I was a huge ball of nervous jitteriness, can you see it in my eyes? It took so much effort to contain my smiles and excitement. (There are many a photo in my files now of me laughing too, but those I am keeping to myself.) I wanted to capture a snippet of it, of that excitement. I want to remember this moment and the butterflies that I had bubbling inside my innards. It really is amazing what nervous energy can accomplish, I tell ya. I was up, showered, hair done, and make up on, having an orange and a glass of water (no coffee) by 6:30am.

I am so tempted to tell you all what is going on behind the scenes here. I just can't though. Not yet. Rest assured it is big, and it would mean some pretty major life changes. Not-throw-your- family-in-the-back-of-a-pick-up-truck-and-move-to-another-state kinda life change (the kind I experienced with my parents more times than I can count as a child), but the kind of change that is pivotal. There are two paths before me, and I may need to choose which direction I want to take my art/life/career. I am proud of myself for seeking out the chance to have a choice of paths. I heard a whisper in my heart at the thought of an opportunity and I didn't quiet it. I turned it up full volume and went for it. It is scary and exhilarating at the same time. One of the best feelings in the world, if you ask me, and I hope y'all get to feel it in your own lives now and then.

The events of the past 24 hours had another effect on me... no studio time. I was knee deep in research (oh my, was that a little hint?) I am trying to get in there though!! I got stuff needs doing and things that need making. Many hands shaking like leaves isn't going to help much, but I am gonna try. Here is a little sneak peak at beads that will be available later this week... Friday or Saturday maybe. Wicked cool 80's stripey rounds, and wildly layered mod dots. Cool huh?

bead preview
Anywho... thanks for letting me get out of a bit of excitement here and understanding my secrecy. Hopefully the suspense doesn't have to last for too much longer.

13 comments:

Alice said...

Oh, shame on you for teasing us without telling the whole thing. I do hope it's that you are coming to Kansas to teach classes here in my little town. Nah, that couldn't be it....now you've got me wondering.

On a side note, yesterday I received your Totally Twisted book from Craft Gossip's giveway. Lucky me!!!! I had only about 15 minutes to look through it, and with each turn of the page I found myself thinking 'oh, I want to make that'. I can't wait to read it more thouroughly!

Leslie @ Bei Mondi said...

Can't wait to hear about the big news, Kerry! I'm excited for you! :)

Nonie said...

OMG...I can't stand it! Seriously tho..this is so much fun waiting to hear.

sundownbeaddesigns said...

Reading your post I got butterflies in my stomach...totally excited and nervous about whatever your excited and nervous about! Can't wait to hear! Those beads are fab!Such great color combo.

Janet said...

Well Kerry whatever it is it sounds really exciting! You must be way excited! Hard work and diligence pays off...awesome day for you!

AliBaubles said...

You sound so excited! I'm so curious what this is all about, and wishing you lots of luck, and hoping you won't be kept in suspense too long :)

Kristen said...

So excited for you for whatever is coming your way!! Can't wait to share in your joy when you let the cat out of the bag! :)

TesoriTrovati said...

I have an inkling...but I am not saying! I am so excited for you. I am intrigued by the path that you are charting and what you will trailblaze next for the rest of us. I need to start seriously listening to the voices in my heart that are urging me.... push is coming to shove.
Can't wait for you to spill it! (whatever 'it' is!)
Enjoy the day!
xo
Erin

RockerJewlz said...

I SO want to crunch my way through those stripes, they look so edible!

It is really fun to live vicariously through you with this secret you're bursting to share. It's like we are watching our guide to see how you handle such a huge life change...whatever it is.

Rebecca said...

How exciting for you! It's a lovely picture too. And I love the beads....the colours are the best!

Teri and Amber said...

Wow sounds wonderful and if you feel it in your heart, then hooray for whatever is about to happen! Your writing is very good, sucked me right in the zone until the very last word. I will be returning here to read about a happy ending!

Beadativity said...

Kerry,
I'm so excited for you!!! I hope everything goes the way you want. I love that feeling of something exciting just about to happen. I've been there very recently and made a HUGE change to my life. In just a couple of months that change will take effect... so I have an idea of what you are feeling. Congrats!!!

Cindy said...

Kerry, you sure shared the feeling with us here... kinda got me all nervous reading this! You're a cruel woman leading everyone on like this, but I already told you that! :-)
Those beads are gorgeous!!! Reminds me of the striped egg-shaped beads you made a long time ago...